cycles

this is a miserable existence

i can't seem to escape

irrelevance

I have an immense fear of becoming completely invisible.

I'm afraid it's happening at this very moment, and I have never felt such panic.

judge, jury

It's always nice to find out people think the worst of you with very little basis

pretenses

Itchy lies, you cannot hide

even beneath the thickest hide

While you slumber, while you wake

from these lies, you can't escape

They eat, eat, eat away

mind and body both decay

muse

You inspire the best in me, but at the same time you seem untouchable

I'm crippled in proximity and mute on sight

The blood rushes to my head as I struggle to keep it together

I just wish I could break down this wall.

switch

Panic sets in, breath goes shallow

The void approaches as I wallow

Uncertain of what to do

So many things I can't undo

Tick, tock, the countdown grows louder

...Damn, I thought I had more time.

eighty-eight

Missed chances and wrong decisions haunt me at every turn

I bite my lip to drown out the mistakes of my past, present, and future